jizzle (gness) wrote,
jizzle
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ugh

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justin… Online Now!
12/27/2009 12:41 AM
To: Zakuro

for the record i've been trying to get straight answers from you for months now. if you were honest from the beginning i wouldn't even be typing this right now.
when this shit first happened you said it "hit you that you were in a serious relationship" and it "was weighing too heavy on your heart" as if i'm supposed to know what the fuck that means.
every time i would try to get a real straight answer from you you'd sugar coat everything and just continue to lead me on. "i can't handle a relationship now, maybe later" "i'm in love with you" "i still have the same feelings for you" all while still fooling around with me. WHY?
"it has nothing to do with her" "i have to fix things with my old friends before i can even focus on my personal life" wtf kind of excuses is that? how is anyone supposed to know what that means?
when i told you i'd wait for you before it was fine but then you soon realized you now had so many other/better options. all you had to say is that you found someone better. that's it. HONESTY IS AMAZING!
so i guess by ignoring me you felt that i should just read your fucking mind and know that it was really 'never' instead of 'maybe'? you knew i'd wait. you knew i'd make excuses for you. you kept me hanging on until YOU moved on and you didn't even have the decency to say "justine i don't want to be with YOU" that's all you had to fucking say.
i told you just to admit that you never loved me and that you used me and you wouldn't. you just ignored me. i don't know what i did to deserve any of this because you won't ever tell me.
you can pretend all you want. we both know how everything happened.
i'm sorry that i fucking cared for you so much that i was willing to wait forever. you just used me and ignored me and made me feel the lowest i've ever felt. you told me you were brutally honest. YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR. you lied about everything. perhaps your new years resolution should be to stop lying to everyone, especially yourself.


no response to that one.

the other one went back and forth.


ZakuroJames Bond
12/27/2009 1:33 PM
To: justine never knew the ru...

ok im a giant fucking piece of shit that doesnt care about anyone but themself.
simplified enough for you?



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justin… Online Now!
12/27/2009 5:00 PM
To: Zakuro

just answer the fucking questions for the love of god. it's not hard. you will never hear from me again. just please fucking do it.


ZakuroJames Bond
12/28/2009 6:13 PM
To: justine never knew the ru...

answering your questions that have obvious answers arent gonna change or solve anything.
im sorry.
i was a douchebag obviously
so live your life and stop worrying about stupid shit like this.


justin… Online Now!
12/28/2009 6:31 PM
To: Zakuro

that's what you think but you don't even care, so how would you know?
if i know the truth then i never have to make these mistakes again. i'll be able to spot the tell tale signs of deception to come. i'll no longer make excuses for your behavior. i won't ever have to think of you and i can move on with no remorse and no more regrets.
to be cheated on, used and lied to and then justify it because i so badly wanted to believe that you were a decent but troubled person underneath it all...do you even know how damaging that all is?
why is it so hard for you to own up to anything? you know the truth, just say it. you don't care about me at all so why not just say it? it's like you really enjoy hurting people. :-/
please, no more sarcasm. all i want is the truth. answer the questions.

while i was responding he sent this and it almost sounded sincere.


ZakuroJames Bond Online Now!
12/28/2009 6:20 PM
To: justine never knew the ru...

i didnt lie about everything
i realized i didnt want to be in a relationship
youre too insecure is your biggest fault
now what else do you want answered?

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justin… Online Now!
12/28/2009 6:36 PM
To: Zakuro

if you didn't want to be in a relationship then why did you act like we were still in one after we broke up?
why did you tell me you loved me when you didn't?
why did you just ignore me when i was trying to be there for you?
why did you cheat on me?
what didn't you lie about?
what did i do wrong?
what did i do to deserve this?


no response to that one so i sent another

justin… Online Now!
25 Min ago
To: Zakuro

please just do it, james. i don't want to go into the new year with this on my mind. i want to be done with it all.
i know i'm insecure as fuck. i can own up to it and i can work on it. i can also remember a time when i wasn't so. but you ruined that. you ruined me.
please just let this all be over. answer the questions. i've asked them time and time again. i've bolded them. i've cut down their numbers. please just do it. i don't want to have this pain anymore. i want to rid my life of you.
please. don't you just want this to be over? i swear to god i will never contact you again. i won't ever look at you again. i will try my damnedest to never think of you. please just tell me the truth. answer the questions.


ZakuroJames Bond Online Now!
4:02 PM
To: justine never knew the ru...

then let it be over for fucks sake i already answered the fucking questions



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justin… Online Now!

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justin… Online Now!
6 Min agoTo: Zakuro

jesus fucking christ. no you didn't.
if you didn't want to be in a relationship then why did you act like we were still in one after we broke up?
why did you tell me you loved me when you didn't?
why did you just ignore me when i was trying to be there for you?
why did you cheat on me?
what didn't you lie about?
what did i do wrong?
what did i do to deserve this?
there. i copied and pasted them again. just fucking answer them.



god i want to punch him in the face so hard.
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